6:10pm

I've left this bed maybe three times today, to use the ladies room, make a sandwich and to get Swiss rolls. I feel like such a blob. I wasn't going to do anything anyway, so why not spend it in bed? I have no one to impress anyway.

Tomorrow I might go to the coheed show, I got invited (well I didn't get invited but Matt asked me if I was coming and I said I had no money but he would let me in if I drove out, thoughtful) but I probably won't go because I most likely won't feel like it because there will be people there that I don't want to see.

I've been laying here looking online at all the stupid girly things I want and wish I could fill an apartment with. I looked at all the adoptable pups too, I want to save them all. I wish I could. Poor beebies.

Thursday someone from geico is coming to look at the damage on my car and they'll probably write a check. I just need a new car. I have the worst luck with that thing.

I Should be getting my disability crap figured out soon, then I'll have money until SS starts up. I need it soon. I have bills to pay.

I want to be okay with being alone. I'll get there. It's just nice having someone there to share things with. It's comforting. But I'm okay. I definitely don't need it right now. When I'm ready it will find me and it will be amazing. I'll learn more about myself being alone anyway.

I want it to be warm so I can go barefoot all the time and wear dresses. I wish I still lived on the lake. That place was beautiful.
I wish I wish I wish...