my gut is in knots

Doctor appointment for social security at 1:45 today. Hopefully I'll know something more about what will be happening. This whole process takes forever and I'm more than ready for something to be decided so I can get on with my life, go back to work, go back to school, etc. I'm kind of impatient but I'm trying really hard not to be. I just need to do something besides sit here all the time. It depresses me especially being in this town. I miss having a job actually, sometimes. I miss being a part of the world, right now I just feel like a lazy piece of crap, a waste of space, a waste of life.